I have a steady job that I really enjoy (it's not a utopia, but being where God wants me to be is a good feeling). I have a boyfriend whom I love deeply and know that I will spend the rest of my life with. I have a family that supports each other through love, prayers, and humor. I have a second family that loves me as their own daughter, granddaughter, niece, and cousin. I have two incredible women that I call my best friends (even though it would be nice if we lived closer). I have a lot. I am blessed.
But...that routine that I've been praying to have for the last year...now that I have it, I'm feel a little bored!
There are SO many things that I want to happen that are not happening. And I can't control that. It drives me crazy. I want to be content with how things are but it is so difficult when there is this promise of a future that I've always dreamed about.
I'm not a very patient woman. Waiting for God's timing and waiting on other people has never been my strength. But that's where I am right now...stuck in routine, waiting for something exciting to happen.
First of all, I love you. Perhaps this whole thing is like getting pregnant. If you stress about it, it doesn't happen. If you relax, there's suddenly a baby. Just a thought:)
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